Baby , happy valentine's day ! Baby , i promise that i will do whatever it takes for me the make this relationship last forever . Baby , i really want to thank you for giving me a second chance , i will shower you with all the love i have . Baby , I wish I was a teddy bear , that lay upon your bed , so everytime you cuddled it, you cuddled me instead. I really wish to spend my life with you forever , so every morning when i wake up i would see you by my side or me cuddling you in my arms . Baby , even though we could not spend out valentines day together , you will forever be in my heart . Baby , i am sorry that i did not buy you roses , i am sorry that those flower i made you were so dull and thanks for the shirt baby , i really love it alot and i will always be there for you whenever you need me .  BAOBEI WO AI NI YI SHEN YI SHI !

Today is the 31th day since you left me , I am really LOST cause i really don know what to do . Everyone is asking me to give up , but if loving someone is so easy to give up , it would not be love anymore . I know that there is no more love in you towards me , which made me very hurt ( cant do anything my fault after all ) . I also know that there is only him in you now , but i really don want you to be so sad everyday . I know that you are unhappy , but you cant do anything .


This seems abit funny ar ?While i am waiting for you , you are there waiting for him , what about him ? Giving you some dumb excuse that his goodfriends not liking you , if he has this kind of good friend right , what the point of them , good friends are suppose to understand each other and support each other when in trouble !


I am really sorry that i hurt you that much , really sorry . You know that i am rusty in relationship right ? I know that this does not mean much but i really love you alot . Me saying anything thing much now does not mean much but i really regreted , really regreted and i have change for you ! How i wish i have a time machine now ! So i could go back in time to make up all my mistakes ! You are seriously the only girl that made me love you so much , seriously so much !


Do you want i know when i started to know that i could not live without you ? Not the time that you broke up with me , but the time that i got back from malaysia ! When i was there i saw my ex , some feelings came back , but i told myself that i am already attacted to you and i cant do anything stupid and hurt anyone . When i was in the room by myself alot of things came into my mind ! One of the most important was you , cause i know that once i start loving a person , the person should really feel it . By then some images flown by , it was me and you holding our hand , walking beside a huge beautiful pond . After that i knee down and asked if you could marry me ! That was when i knew that you were the one , the one for me ! You made me love strawberries , but whenever i eat strawberries , i think of you which hurts alot !


JON ! how i wish your wish for me that time would came true ! i really wish that would come true !

In your 1 month anniversary, the letter you wrote to me was : I really hope we can last long . At times , i cant help but ask myself ,"did i make the right decision to agree to be with you ? I found my answers now .:D I did make the right choice .
I really hope that we last long too ! But i always srew things up ! I always do !

That day that we patch , i really did not want to lose you again . Your kiss which you gave me, felt like our first kiss, its surreal, heavenly.The kiss that i want , from no one but you . But after all i still srew up , srew up big time !

I really hope that you will give me one more chance , one and only last one ! I know that you are the one , only you !

"I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. "


Roy Croft



You can never say never.

091009- Still deeply in love with you. <3

Today is a new year , i really hope that we can have a new start . I will just wait ba ! I don know why but for the pass 2 weeks and 1 day , everytime i go into youtube , i would accidentally click onto all the romance songs that is either the guy asking the girl to come back to him or the other way around , i don know if i god asking me to let you see all this song or what but i really need you back in my life !

Baby , i really cannot forget you . Every single minute I am think about you , Every single thing that i do would link back to you . I am seriously willing to do anything to get you back , you are like seriously my everything . I think i rather you hurt me the second time then to leave me just like that , i really feel like hell now ! Today is already the 1 week and 1 day that you left me , for this 1 week and 1 day , I totally cant do everything , I can't sleep , I can't do anything without you .

You Are The First Thing I Think About



When I Wake Up






Just Thinking Of You Put The


Biggest Smiles On My Face






Every Love Song I Listen To


I Think Of You






I Will Do Anything In This World For You


Coz You Are My World N Everything,






Baby I Love You!

 Wo zhen de hen ai ni , qing ni hui lai wo shen bian ba  ! <333333333333333333333333333333333

Sorry baby , even though you are not anymore my baby ,but i still wish you would be again one day . I know that this few days i have been pushing you to a limit that you cant stand it anymore , i am sorry , i just really don know how much i have hurt you ! Now what i want to say is that i am not going to push you any further already , cause i know that pushing you further would just make you hate me more , but this does not mean that i am giving up on you . I really hope that my love angels would convey the message to you and make the love for NoEl grow in you again ! :D really hope that is going to happen  :D Oh plus stop reading in the dark , you do not want to wear the specs like i do .


God i know that you are reading this post so please help me send the messages to sihui through your lovely angels !




NOEL WILL LOVE SIHUI FOREVER NO MATTER WHAT ! AND WILL BE THERE FOR HER WHENEVER SHE NEEDS SOMEONE TO TALK TO OR WHEN SHE IS SAD HE WILL BE THERE TO CHEER HER UP WITH STRAWBERRIS .

Today when i woke up i lay on my bed and was thinking , what did i do wrong and i realise how much i have hurt you . I know that me saying something now does not mean anything anymore , but seriously , i am not going to give up . I will do whatever it takes to get you back ! I know i got to give you sometime to know more about me . But don take too long alrights ? :D love you always NoEl :-)

i don know why this few days i keep drinking ! Am i doing all this just to get rid of all the pain ? I really don think there is someone that can make me forget you . Please come back as soon as possible ! please please please please .